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| BEEN A WHILE |
| 02.26.04 (12:18 pm) [edit] |
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[b]SO MARDI GRAS CAME AND WENT AND WE HAD FUN. WE WENT TO SOME FESTVAL AND BEFORE WE GOT THERE I WAS ALREADY DRUNK. HELL YEA I HAD A PRETTY GOOOD BUZZ GOIN. WHATEVER IT WAS IT WAS GREAT. NO NO FLASHIN FOR ME NOW THE GIRLS THATS A DIFFERENT STORY! LOL NA WE HAD FUN THEN WE CHILLED AT DENNYS' WHERE WE MET RRRRROGER. SOME GUY HE WAS NICE WE WERE TALKIN ABOUT ALL SORTS OF STUFF, HE WAS PRETTY COOL. ODDS ARE WE AINT NEVER GONNA SEE HIM AGAIN. MY PLANS TO PHX HAVE BEEN RUINED. I DONT EVEN WANNA TALK ABOUT IT. UGHHH I GOT A NEW LAYOUT GOING ON I LIKE IT... I DIGGS! ME AND RIC HAVENT TALKED, AND I HIGHLY DOUBT WE WILL, THINGS JUST DIDNT GO BACK TO NORMAL..GO FIGURE ITS OK THOUGH. I WISH HIM THE BEST. WE(VAL.RACH.ME) ARE SUPPOSE TO GO TO ODESSA, I DUNO IF IM GOING THOUGH WE'LL SEE! RIGHT NOW IM AT WORK AS USUAL DOING MY THANG. THIS PAST SAT. ME AND STEPH WENT OUT AND SHE GOT DRUNK.... UGLY STYLE :!: HORRRIBLE. WE MET UP WITH JERRY AND HE WAS SOOO SWEET ALL KICKED BACK ABOUT IT. HE KNEW I WAS FRUSTRATED! BUT HE WAS KOOL ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. WERE SUPPOSE TO MAKE IT A BLOCKBUSTER NIGHT SOMETIME, HE SAYS IM BEHIND ON MOVIES :lol: . OK WELL I GOTTA GO. I GOTTA FINISH UP SOME STUFF. PEACE![/b]
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| WHAT A WINDY DAY |
| 02.19.04 (3:20 pm) [edit] |
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[b]YEA SO TOADY ITS BEEN WINDY SOOO VERY WINDY.UGLY STYLE. THINGS ARE GOING DOWNHILL RIGHT NOW, MY TRIP TO PHX IS HAVING MORE ALTERCATIONS THAN BEFORE, SO I DONT EVEN KNOW IF THATS GONNA HAPPEN, ITS A SIGN MAYBE WHO KNOWS. ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER. WE'LL SEE. TODAY IM WOKIN AND VAL PICKED ME UP TO GO TO LUNCH. LOL DAMN I SWEAAR SHES SOOOO FUNNY. ITS HILARIOUS!!! UM WHAT ELSE, I TALKED TO STEPH AS WELL. VAL AND RACHEL ARE GOING TO ODESSA N THEY INVITED ME, SO IF I DONT GO TO PHX IM GOING WITH THEM, THAT SUKS THOUGH IM REALLY LOOKIN FORWARD TO GOING!!!! ANYWAYS WHAT ELSE UGHHH I NEED TO GET BACK TO WORK ON MY SITE ITS STILL LOOKIN NICE BUT EHHH WHO KNOWS. IM BORED IM TIRED AND I HAVE A HISTORY TEST TOMORROW WHICH I HAVE TO GO HOME AND STUDY FOR BIG TIME. ** WISH ME LUCK AGAIN!!** OK IM OUTEE OH YEA ITS ((( TEENKA'S B-DAY ))) HAVE A GOOD ONE BEAUTIFUL!!! UM OK NOW IM REALLY LEAVING PEACE![/b]
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| FEELIN SO MUCH MORE AT EASE. |
| 02.17.04 (7:56 am) [edit] |
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[b]SO LAST NIGHT IFIGURED WHY NOT, VERONIKA QUITE RUNNING FROM THINGS, SO THE WHOLE POINT IS I TALKED TO RIC. YES AND I WILL ADMIT I MISSED TALKIN TO HIM. EHHH I DUNNO AND THEN HE TOLD ME SOME THINGS THAT REALLY SHUT ME UP, AND MAYBE I DID BLOW THINGS OUT OF PROPORTION BUT IM A GIRL AND THERES ONLY SO MUCH U CAN MAKE OUT OF THINGS. WELL ANYWAYS THE GOOD PART TO IT IS THAT IM OFF MY TRIP AND ME AND RIC ARE TALKIN AGAIN. LOL OH GEEESH! I TALKED TO MY GIRL CRYSTAL LAST NIGHT, STUPID GIRL SHES ALWAYS UP TO SOMETHING AS USUAL! I BEEN REMINICIN LATELY AND JUST THINKING ABOUT ALL THATS BEEN GOING ON IN MY LIFE. LIKE I SAID I DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND DO COURT REPORTIN, SELINA TOLD ME THAT ID BE ANOTHER YEAR BUT I KNOW I CAN OULL SOME STUNTS AND BE DONE PROBABLY A SEMESTER EARLY. WOW I FEEL LIKE LIFE IS TAKIN ITS TOLL ON ME, RIGHT NOW IM AT WORK BORED AS USUAL, I WOKE UP LATE AGAIN, OK NOT LATE JUST I HAD TO GET READY IN A HURRY. I DONT FEEL TOO GOOD EITHER, BUT OH WELL I GET OFF AT FOUR. SO IT SHOULDNT BE THAT BAD. IM COUNTING DOWN TILL I GET TO GO TO PHX, A LIL LESS THAN A MONTH. AND THEN I WAS GOING TO GO TO NEW YORK IN MAY, BUT I FORGOT THAT ONE OF MY GREAT FRIENDS IS GRAD. THIS YEAR AND ITS AROUND END OF MAY TOO, I COULDNT MISS HER GRAD. FOR THE WORLD, *MARGARITA KNOWS IT* I HEARD FROM MY LIL NASTY GIRL MARI, ALL I CAN SAY IS " KEEP YOUR HEAD UP MA!" OK WELL YOU KNOW I AM SUPPOSE TO BE WORKIN SO I BEST BE ON MY WAY. TOODLEZ! :wink: [/b]
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| MONDAY ALL OVER AGAIN |
| 02.16.04 (7:51 am) [edit] |
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[b]WELL THIS WEEKEND WAS ALL IT COOULD BE, I HAD A GOOD TIME SAT. WITH MY FRIEND STEPH. WE WENT TO SOME WEDDIN, CLOSEBY IT WAS NICE, GIRRRL GOT BUZZED, ITS OK THOUGH I WAS DRIVIN, SO I DIDNT DRINK. WE ALREADY MADE PLANS FOR NEXT SAT. US TWO AND CRISTINA AND SOME OF HER FRIENDS WERE ALL GOING TO SMOKEYS, SO THAT SHOULD BE FUN. ANYWAYS... LATELY ALL HAS BEEN SPINNIN IN MY HEAD. I MADE UP MY MIND, IM CHANGING MY MAJOR TO COURT REPORTIN, AND THATS THAT, I FIND IT A LOT MORE REWARDING THAN AN AA IN CRIMINAL JUSTICE. WELL ANYWAYS, RIGHT NOW IM BOUT TO GO TO CLASS I GOT 15 MINUTES TILL IT STARTS, SINCE I DIDNT COME FRIDAY. OHHHHH WHICH I ALMOST FORGOT IT SNOWED ON FRIDAY, I GOT A FEW PICS, I NEED TO POST OF THAT DAY, U CANT REALLY TELL ITS SNOWING BUT IT WAS SOOOO PRETTY!! I HADNT SEEN SNOW IN YEARS. SO I HAD TO TAKE MY LIL BRO OUT OF SKOOL TOO.. :lol: ALL WITH GOOD INTENTION. I HAVENT TALKED TO RIC, AND I HONESLTY FEEL I SHOULD, STEPH TELLS ME I SHOULD BUT I JUST DONT KNOW, IM NOT ONE TO POP WITH PEOPLE, I CAN BE SO MAD ONE SECOND AND THEN THE NEXT ACT AS IF THERE WAS NO PROB. AND THATS THE THING I REALLY WANT TO GIVE HIM WHATS ON MY MIND, CUZ BY NOT DOING SO I FEEL LIKE IM RUNNIN FROM BEIN REAL MYSELF. AHHHH WHO KNOWS I AINT ABOUT TO FUCK UP MY DAY EVEN MORE BY STRESSIN THAT RIGHT NOW- IT WAS A BAD MORNIN AS IT IS. I FEEL LIKE SHYT, I WOKE UP LATE LAST NIGHT I WENT OUT TO MY CAR TO GET SOME PAPERS, YET I HAD JUST TAKEN A SHOWER, YEA THEONE TIME I DO IT AND THE ONE TIME IT GETS ME. DAMMMMNIT!! :evil: I DUNNO WELL I GOTTA GET TO CLASS THEREFORE IM OUT I DONT FEEL LIKE SPEAKIN ON ANYTHING ELSE![/b]
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| TRIALS AND TURBULATIONS |
| 02.12.04 (8:11 am) [edit] |
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[b]OK SO LATELY IVE BEEN SOOOOO UNDESICIVE ABOUT COLLEGE, WETHER OR NOT IM STICKIN TO MY LIBERAL ARTS MAJOR OR JUST GOING FOR AN ASSOCIATES AS A LEGAL STENOGRAPHER. IF I TOOK ON TO AN A.A.S. I WOULD BE DONE IF ALL WENT WELL SUMMER OF "05" IF I STAYED WITH MY CURRENT PLAN IT BE THE SAME THING UNLESS I DIDNT GET MY A.A. IN C.J. AND THEN JUST TRANSFER...WO IM REALLY THINKING ABOUT IT. BESIDES I RATHER MOVE BACK TO PHX PREPARED AND WITH A TITLE TO MY NAME RATHER THAN HAVE TO GO AND HAVE NOTHING , OHHHH I DUNNO, I FEEL LIKE IF I DONT TAKE THIS LEGAL THING ID BE LIKE SAYING I CANT DO IT. I LIKE TO TYPE ASND I LOVE ENGLISH IM SURE THEY GO HAND IN HAND, BUT IM THINKING IM ONLY GONNA BE 20 BY THE TIME GRAD. SO ITS NOT BAD, BESIDES I PLAN TO CONTINUE MY EDUCATION FOR MY B.A. IN CRIMINOLOGY OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. WHO KNOWS BESIDES A STENOGRAPHER IS VERY WELL PAID STARTING ENTRY LEVEL PAY IS ABOUT 17.50 PER HOUR AND AVVERAGIN AT ABOUT 37.50 WHICH IS HELLA MONEY. I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT THIS I ONLY GOT A CPL WEEKS BEFORE FALL REGISTRATION STARTS. BUT IM REALLY LEANIN TOWARDS THAT, I CAN ALWAYS MOVE BACK TO AZ IN THE FUTURE IM YOUNG AND I SHOULD TAKE EVERY CHANCE I GOT. OK WELL BESIDES THAT IM DOING GOOD. AHH I DONT REALLY FEEL LIKE EVEN SAYIN NOTHING, THERE AINT MUCH TO SPEAK ON. SO IM OUT![/b]
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| ..Dumb Girl |
| 02.10.04 (8:06 am) [edit] |
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[b]well its tues. im at work and so far its been dead!!!! its ok though.well, me and rach are finally i guess back on track, we chilled sat at my house, a whole lotta reminicing thats for sure. i took my psych test yesterday and im prayin i passed it, who knows i think i bombed!! we'll see. i come to find out i neveer learn the lessons life gotts to teach. turns out i guess im just a waste of time to some people, you dont need to straight say it u can imply it and mean the same shyt. its ok though i rather have em be straight up than frontin and sugar coat it...what can i say i am who i am, and i will not walk in someone's shadow. me and val are suppose to chill on the 14th since her sis is in a quincenera and its her moms b-day so that should be better than being home by all means. ehhhh :wink: . i found out im going to NY in may with one of my moms tias for a cousins grad from doctorate school or what not, hell all i know is that im going back to NY again yeaya. :D . ok well all plans are still go for Phx in March...and the 3 of us are all going so its kool...im so lookin forward to chilln w/mah peepz! ok well imma be on my way so peace.[/b]
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| ..AM I? |
| 02.06.04 (10:42 pm) [edit] |
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[b]YEA SO I HAVENT PROPERLY TALKED TO RIC IN A CPL DAYS...NOT COOL OK BUT I TRY. ANYWAYS TONITE I WAS TRIPPIN OUT CUZ HE HAD THE THOUGHTFULNESS OF TELLING ME THAT HE WAS GOING OUT, I MEAN IT MIGHT NOT SEEM LIKE MUCH BUT WHEN IT COMES TO HIM, ITS ENOUGH. I WOULD NEVER EXPECT HIM TO CONSIDER THAT, MAYBE I SEE IT ALL OUTTA THIS WORLD I JUST THOUGHT IT WAS CUTE CUZ HE DIDNT HAVE TO, I MEAN BUT HE DID AHHHHH TRIP OUT ON ME WHO CARES, I THOUGH IT WAS LIKE I SAID REALLY NICE OF HIM. I MIGHT JUST BE DUMB GIRL. WHO KNOWS. UMMM WHAT ELSE I DUNNO NOT MUCH REALLY I HAVE A TEST MONDAY : WISH ME LUCK IM GONNA NEED IT : UM THE OTHER NIGHT I HAD A TRIPPED OUT DREAM, IT WAS CRAZY I RATHER NOT DISCLOSE BUT IM WONDERING IF I WAS TALKIN OUT LOUD CUZ IT SEEMED SOO DAMN REAL. :roll: WHO KNOWS I SURE AS HELL DONT. AHHH I HAVE A HEADACHE RIGHT NOW SUCKY.....I DUNNO WHAT ELSE TO BLAB ON ABOUT SO I GUESS IM OUTEE![/b]
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| UM LETS SEE |
| 02.05.04 (11:08 am) [edit] |
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[b]IM AT WORK, I GAVE UP ON TRYING TO TRANSLATE BOSNIAN TO ENLGISH..JUST WHEN U THOUGHT THE NET HAD IT ALL GUESS WHAT ::: IT DONT ::: :evil: ALL THANKS TO RIC. ANYWAYS THIS MORNIN I WAS SUPPOSE TO CALL HIM TOO, OOPS, I DID WAKE UP BUT I SAID 10 MORE MINUTS,YA THEY RUNED MORE LIKE ANOTHER HOUR. SORRY! :? ..UMM MOVING ON, THIS WEEKEND IM GETTIN DRUNK LOL.OK NOT REALLY JUST A LIL. NEXT WEEK I GET PAID YEAYA THAT MEANS I GET TO GO SHOPPIN :D . AY AY YEA RIGHT I GOTTA STOCK UP FOR MARCH. UM I TALKED TO MY BUDDY DAVID LAST NIGHT, HE SOUNDED SAD..WHO KNOWS TRIP OUT WHEN I LIVED IN PHX HE WOULD NEVER COME AROUND ALL OF A SUDDEN HE CALLS ME MORE THAN HE DOES DIANA. MMM..SPEAKIN OF WHICH IHAVENT TALKED TO IN FOREVER, I HAVENT TALKED TO GABE EITHER STUPID BOI, I MISS MY PAL. HES PROBABLY ALL SPRNG OFF THAT WHORE THAT GOTS HIM WHERE SHE WANTS HIM. OK OK ENOUGH BOUT THAT. IM BORED IM GETTIN OF THIS SHYT I GOT WORK TO DO.. :!: HA YEA RIGHT ITS SO DEAD RIGHT NOW BUT THATS OK. OK BYE![/b]
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| UMMM JUST ANOTHER DAY GONE BY |
| 02.02.04 (10:33 pm) [edit] |
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[b]OK SO ITS MONDAY AND USUALLY MONDAYS ARENT GOOD..WELL TODAY WAS AN OK DAY...I WENT TO SCHOOL, THEN I CAME HOME AN HOUR EARLY AND DID WHAT I HAD TO DO AT HOME SINCE MY MOM GOT CALLED TO WORK. I WASHED DISHES, PICKED UP MY BROTHER FROM SCHOOL, I COOKED HIM LUNCH THEN I LEFT CUZ I WAS GETTIN IRRITATED AT HOME, SO I TOOK OFF TO THE POST OFFICE AND TO PAY A BILL FOR MY MOM, I WAS GOING TO STOP AT MY TIAS HOUSE BUT FOR SOMRREASON I DIDNT, I FIGURED ID GO LATER TO WATCH A CPL MOVIES SINCE THEY GOT THE DISH BACK UP. BUT I DIDNT EVEN GET AROUND TO THAT, I CAME HOME AND I FELL ASLEEP AND I DIDNT WAKE UP TILL LIKE 9 SOMETHIN' I DUNNO. :?: . WELL ANYWAYS TOMORROW I GOT WORK, AND I HOPE THIS WEEK GOES BY PRETTY FAST, SINCE LAST DIDNT. OH YEA I ALSO GOT A LETTER FROM :ANTONIO: AND SEEMS LIKE THINGS COULD LOOK UP. WELL ANYWAYS EARLIER TODAY I HAD A CONVERSATION WITH MY MOM AND I ASKED HER HOW SHE FELT ABOUT ME MOVING AND SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE DIDNT WANT TO THINK ABOUT IT, BESIDES SHE SAID THAT SHE COULDNT SEE ME MAKING IT ON MY OWN...THATS WHAT HER AND MY DAD STIRVE ON AND HOW THEY ARE SO SURE I AINT GONNA MAKE IT, LIKE DAMN IM GLAD IM BELIVED IN. I KNOW THEY DONT WANT ME TO LEAVE HOME AND I UNDERSTAND, BUT EVEN AT THAT IN THE LONG RUN I HAVE TO MAKE A LIFE FOR MYSELF SOONER OR LATER. THE THING THAT WORRIES ME IS THAT IF I LEAVE MY DAD IS GONNA WANT TO LEAVE ALSO JUST SO HE KNOWS IM OK AND LIVING WITH THEM, I REALLY DONT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN, CUZ IM TRYIN TO BE MY OWN PERSON, NEVERTHELESS IF THEM MOVED BACK IT BE LIKE GOING BACK TO THE LIFE WE LIVED WHEN WE DID LIVE IN PHX, IT WASNT A FAMIY LIFE IT WAS MORE LIKE WE ALL DID OUR OWN THING. AND I HONESLTY DONT WANT MY BROTHER TO HAVE THAT. I LIVED THROUGH IT AND I THINK MY LIL BRO DESERVES BETTER SO DOES MY MOM. CUZ ALTHOUGH MY DAD SAYS HE'S QUIT FOR GOOD INFLUENCES WILL TAKE A TOLL...BUT WHO KNOWS, I KNOW ITS NOT AROUND THE CORNER WHEN IM GONNA HAVE TO START LOOKIN INTO LEAVING BUT I LIKE TO THINK ABOUT IT AS MUCH AS I CAN I MEAN I RATHER FACE REALITY THAN IN THE LONG RUN HAVING BE A SHOCK TO ME ALL AT ONCE. LOL DAMN IGUESS HERE I GO AGAIN WRITING AWAY LIKE NOTHING...EHH WHATEVER SOMETHING JUST NEED OUT. OK WELL IM OUTTA HERE SO UM YEA. :wink: [/b]
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| SUNDAY NITE! |
| 02.01.04 (9:01 pm) [edit] |
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WELL ITS BEEN A BORING WEEKEND AS ALWAYS, THERES BEEN A LOT ON MY MIND LATELY, SCHOOL, FAMILY, AND JUST WANTING THIS YEAR TO FLY BY I CANT WAIT TO MOVE BACK TO PHX I CERTAINLY KNOW THIS PLACE HOLDS NO FUTURE FOR ME. SCHOOLS GOING GOOD, I CANT COMPLAIN, IM GOING TO TRY AND TEST OUT OF MY NEXT MATH, THAT WAY I'LL SKIP ALL THAT CRAP. THINGS WITH MY SO CALLED BEST FRIEND ARENT LOOKIN UP EITHER, IT BUGS ME NO NEED TO LIE, ITS CRAZY THOUGH HOW SOMEONE CAN JUST ACT HOW SHE DOES, BUT I KNOW THAT IF I SAY SOMETHING SHE'LL TURN THE TABLES ON ME, WE'VE HAD THIS TYPE OF CONVO. BEFORE OH WELL WHATEVER I DONT EVEN THINK THAT SHES REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT GOING WITH ME TO PHX, THAT SURE AS HELL AINT GONNA STOP ME, IM GOING WETHER IM ACCOMPANIED OR NOT DONT MATTER TO ME, IVE BEEN DISSAPOINTED PLENTY OF TIMES NOTHING NEW REALLY. IT JUST REALLY BUGS ME WHEN PPL CANT COME REAL WITT IT...THE HELL ARE U GONNA SUGAR COAT SHYT FOR, JUST BE STRAIGHT UP UGHH THAT SHYT GETS TO MY LAST NERVE. LETS SEE, VALENTINES DAY IS COMIN UP.. HONESLTY I HATE THIS TIME OF YEAR :!: I GUESS BECAUSE I'VE NEVER REALLY HAD SOMEONE TO SPEND IT WITH, BUT IN A WAY IM KINDA GLAD, CUZ WHEN I DO FIND A GUY THATS THERE WITH MY DURING THAT TIME, IT'LL MEAN SO MUCH MORE TO ME..OR MAYBE THATS JUST MY WAY OF MAKEING IT SEEM BRIGHTER....WHATEVER I FIGURE ITS JUST NOT MY TIME TO FALL IN LOVE :roll: . BUT I DO KNOW ITS TAKIN HELLA OF A LONG TIME THOUGH. UGH OH NO I FEEL LIKE IM WRITING A NOVEL...LOL :? OOPS... I NEED TO GET BACK TO MY HOMWORK..SO IM OUTEE.
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